Birthday Intuition Cards

Reflection on my Birthday Intuition Cards | 10.20.21

Queen | Mountains | Yellow

Queen was my first pull and I immediately knew why. It is time for me to step onto the throne. To be the Queen that I am. It is not an easy or delicate role. But it is path before me and I either choose to take it or suffer in resistance. Becoming Queen means facing your demons… looking them in the eyes… and listening to the answers to the questions you ask:

Why do I feel like this?

How can I feel good again?

What is my purpose here?

I think to some extent, we have all the “answers” within ourselves. I think I have mine. And honestly, it’s a pretty hard one, which leads to my next pull… Mountains. This one wasn’t as clear to me, but my initial reaction was on “Mountains to Climb”. Which… gulp. Anxiety fuels a card like this as my mind immediately went to the worst: the death of a loved one; my trauma response. But I accept the thought and remind my mind that these cards aren’t making predictions. It is not the future and so my worry does not belong there. Life will always be full of mountains, valleys, rivers, oceans… and I know the mountain I’m on now. This mountain I climb now is – I think – perfectly tied to my “ascension to the throne”. My Queendom comes with full and free expression of self, alignment of purpose, and deep connection. I know the mountain I am on and I know there are more to come. And I know I will do it.

That leaves my final pull… Yellow. Like the beautiful leaves outside, the warm bright sun, and the third chakra – the solar plexus – the energy center of connection and life purpose. I smiled when I pulled this card, because I think this has always been a guiding point in my life. I feel like for most of my life, I’ve been met with challenges where I had to advocate for myself, my choices, my interests, my passions, my joy. I’ve had to have and was always guided by this deep sense of self. I was not always self-loving, self-confident, or self-motivated and they are still things that I intentionally work on today. But I have always felt that I knew best for me. I knew me. Life and expectations and trauma always challenge that relationship with self. But it can also build it. And you can grow from it.

When you’re in the darkness you understand the power of the light – the meaning of the light. And the importance of the light within. This quote has been with me since I was a teenager:

“Do not anticipate trouble or worry about what may never happen.

Keep in the sunlight.”

Keep in the Sunlight. The Sunlight. The Solar Plexus. The Center of Me. The Yellow card was this. To me, a confirmation of being on my path. That listening to myself – my truth – is Yellow. It is keeping in the sunlight. It is the name of my wellness practice, my passion: The Sunlight.

Damn these were good cards! I honestly was anxious going into it (duh have you met me), but I remembered my lesson – Let Go. You need to let go. So I breathed into it, released any anticipation or expectation and decided to let it go however it went. I’d say it went rather well.

For the doubters - and the doubt that lives inside each of us: even if the cards are total bullshit, it provides a great opportunity to step away from the demands of everyday life and to write and be open to feelings, thoughts, spirit.

Happy Birthday to Me, to the little girl me, to the beautiful woman me.

29. Queen. Mountain. Yellow.

Keep in the Sunlight.